I missed having girl talks with my friends. I’ve been imprisoned here at home for too long. I want to get out! And I don’t mean it literally. I mean, I just want to hang out with my friends.
My cousin was here earlier and we talked about, well, BOYS. Yes, the most common topic all the girls talk about. She visited me because she has a new crush. Since she’s an only girl, she always takes a trip to our house every time she needs someone to talk to. While talking to her, I realized that I soooo missed having those chikkah moments with my friends. And I miss having crushes. Ha, ha, ha!
It’s weird because ever since I failed, I’ve been trying to avoid everyone, especially my crushes. Now that they’re all gone, I want to get in touch with them again. I want to get in touch with my classmates whom I avoided, I want to get in touch with my other friends whom I also avoided and I want to get in touch with my crushes whom I drove away.
Okay, I’m being boy crazy right now. Thanks to my cousin, who just turned 16, I’m going gaga over my past crushes again. Hah. Thanks, Cuz. Because of you, I’m feeling sorry for my self again. How I wish that I am young like you again. Thanks talaga. Ha, ha! I don’t hate you, dear. It’s just that I missed a lot of things this month because I isolated my self too much.
Okay, Tintin, time to face the world again. :)
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Failure
I failed. I failed. I failed! I failed First Year College!
No, I didn’t actually fail. I passed all my subjects, so technically, I’m eligible to enter 2nd year college. But I’m not. ‘Coz I didn’t pass the stupid cut-off.
So here’s the story…
I’m studying as a Nursing Student in a prestigious University. It’s really hard to study there as a Nursing Student. The competition is really intense. Every aspiring nursing student wants to study there. Thousands and thousands of students took Nursing as their course in that school but only 600 students were accepted, and I’m one of them! So hell yeah, I AM PROUD.
But now I failed the dim cut-off. Am I proud? Off course not! I am ashamed right now. I am sad. I want to cry and I want to die. But it has been 1 month since I learned that I failed so crying is the last thing I want to do right now.
Ack! I can’t organize my thoughts right now. It’s not because I’m sad, because I am not. I can’t organize my thoughts right now because I AM ANGRY, VERY ANGRY. ‘Coz if you’ll think about it, I deserve to pass the cut-off, I really do. So here, I would list all the reasons why I should have passed that darn cut-off.
I passed all my subjects. I DON’T HAVE A FAILING GRADE. Hell, even UP let there students have summer classes so that they can make up for their failing marks. But why can’t I? I didn’t even fail. It’s just that 480++ students are better than me. And my school isn’t even UP. Argh.
I passed the entrance exam and I passed the interview. I know a lot of people who passed the cut-off, but didn’t even pass the entrance exam. And some of them are not reconsidered. They were just extra’s that had a connection with the Dean or some professors and administrators. So I deserve their slot because I didn’t use the Padrino System.
I had a transmittable illness during the school days. I was absent for 1 freaking week. I missed a lot of stuff. I missed a lot of lessons! And the day I came back, they already gave me quizzes about certain topics I don’t even know. So obviously, I got a zero score on those quizzes.
I made all the group projects. Yes, I stayed late at night to finish group reports while my other group mates (Or this certain GROUPMATE of mine)’ are busy studying for the individual reports and for the quizzes next day. As a result, I failed my quizzes because I didn’t get the chance to study and I failed my individual report because I was so busy doing the GROUP report. The sad thing is that my teacher’s didn’t give me the credit for doing the group reports because, well, it is a GROUP REPORT. And yes, that certain classmate of mine, who didn’t do her parts on the report, passed the freaking cut-off.
I was the class, no, I was the batch’s official photographer. Yes, I took a picture of them but that’s not what I’m talking about. Instead of studying the slides for our Zoology quizzes, I was so busy taking pictures of each slide so that the whole batch, all 599 of them, can study the pictures at home after I post it on one of my multiply account.
Lastly, I haven’t caused any problems to the class, or to the batch, or to the whole nursing community. Unlike one of my classmate, who caused problems, scandals and a few feuds, I haven’t done anything like that. And yes, that classmate of mine passed the cut-off.
So there, those are my reasons why I should have passed the cut-off. But I can’t do anything about it know. All I can do is move on and do my best on my new school. Haaaaay, I’ll miss all my friends there. And I mean, all 1000++ of them. :(
No, I didn’t actually fail. I passed all my subjects, so technically, I’m eligible to enter 2nd year college. But I’m not. ‘Coz I didn’t pass the stupid cut-off.
So here’s the story…
I’m studying as a Nursing Student in a prestigious University. It’s really hard to study there as a Nursing Student. The competition is really intense. Every aspiring nursing student wants to study there. Thousands and thousands of students took Nursing as their course in that school but only 600 students were accepted, and I’m one of them! So hell yeah, I AM PROUD.
But now I failed the dim cut-off. Am I proud? Off course not! I am ashamed right now. I am sad. I want to cry and I want to die. But it has been 1 month since I learned that I failed so crying is the last thing I want to do right now.
Ack! I can’t organize my thoughts right now. It’s not because I’m sad, because I am not. I can’t organize my thoughts right now because I AM ANGRY, VERY ANGRY. ‘Coz if you’ll think about it, I deserve to pass the cut-off, I really do. So here, I would list all the reasons why I should have passed that darn cut-off.
I passed all my subjects. I DON’T HAVE A FAILING GRADE. Hell, even UP let there students have summer classes so that they can make up for their failing marks. But why can’t I? I didn’t even fail. It’s just that 480++ students are better than me. And my school isn’t even UP. Argh.
I passed the entrance exam and I passed the interview. I know a lot of people who passed the cut-off, but didn’t even pass the entrance exam. And some of them are not reconsidered. They were just extra’s that had a connection with the Dean or some professors and administrators. So I deserve their slot because I didn’t use the Padrino System.
I had a transmittable illness during the school days. I was absent for 1 freaking week. I missed a lot of stuff. I missed a lot of lessons! And the day I came back, they already gave me quizzes about certain topics I don’t even know. So obviously, I got a zero score on those quizzes.
I made all the group projects. Yes, I stayed late at night to finish group reports while my other group mates (Or this certain GROUPMATE of mine)’ are busy studying for the individual reports and for the quizzes next day. As a result, I failed my quizzes because I didn’t get the chance to study and I failed my individual report because I was so busy doing the GROUP report. The sad thing is that my teacher’s didn’t give me the credit for doing the group reports because, well, it is a GROUP REPORT. And yes, that certain classmate of mine, who didn’t do her parts on the report, passed the freaking cut-off.
I was the class, no, I was the batch’s official photographer. Yes, I took a picture of them but that’s not what I’m talking about. Instead of studying the slides for our Zoology quizzes, I was so busy taking pictures of each slide so that the whole batch, all 599 of them, can study the pictures at home after I post it on one of my multiply account.
Lastly, I haven’t caused any problems to the class, or to the batch, or to the whole nursing community. Unlike one of my classmate, who caused problems, scandals and a few feuds, I haven’t done anything like that. And yes, that classmate of mine passed the cut-off.
So there, those are my reasons why I should have passed the cut-off. But I can’t do anything about it know. All I can do is move on and do my best on my new school. Haaaaay, I’ll miss all my friends there. And I mean, all 1000++ of them. :(
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